Online Dating

It's been a couple of weeks since I last blogged. Sorry about that - I'm having a heck of a time in this journey called life.

Anyway, I thought I'd post about an insecurity I'm having this week. I thought I'd bite the bullet and join the online dating scene again. My mind tends to play tricks on me, so I'm not sure why I torture myself this way. ;)

For instance. Say I email a guy... the system tells me when he's read it. Instead of thinking maybe he thinks we won't click, I immediately become insecure in my skin and think it's because I'm not a Barbie.

Part of my problem I realize, but it's how I think. Maybe someday I'll get my head on straight. Until then, I keep praying that God will change me. :)

Tuesday's Wisdom

I love this. Something to chew on. Hope your week is going great!

Weekend Activity

Do you find it harder to get your activity in on the weekends? Depending on what's happening, this is mostly true for me -- especially Sundays. It's rest day don't you know! I spent this weekend in Nebraska for a cousin's wedding and this gal was my exercise buddy:

She's my brother's dog and doesn't get out a lot, so I took her for walks and played in the yard with her. :) It was beautiful weather for it, too!

Reminder

No matter where you are in your journey, always remember .... 

I'm talking to myself, too! :)

No Joke

Last week I had my three month follow up with the endocrinologist. My a1c was slightly elevated than last time at 5.9. My doctor was positive and said what I was doing is safe for me. Then he asked if I'd lost weight, to which I laughed. He said he had something else up his sleeve...

A weight loss pill.

Not surgery like last time (ugh). Anyway. I'm still unsure if i want to go that route. It's not covered by insurance and not reimbursable by my cafeteria plan. I really want to do this right. I can't help but think that there has to be something else going on inside my body that's preventing my weight loss. So far no tests have confirmed this. It's frustrating and mildly irritating. I know you've all heard this from me before and I'm sorry to whine about it. I just don't know what else to do!

So far I've been mostly unsuccessful at keeping my goals in check and then I get in a funk. It's a vicious cycle this journey... None the less, I've made my workout schedule for the month of April, including a couple of morning walks. Thursdays being my only day off. I've also upped my trainer sessions to twice a week. We'll see what happens.

Pressing on. Running the race.